How do u spend your childhood n early teenage years? Mine?..Its hard to judge, theres a pros and cons of my upbringing. I never blame anyone, my parent, myself or society for it. For me its just nature following its course.
    I was born premature, 7 months in d womb, not because i can’t wait to get out but my mom have this complication concerning high blood pressure. It either me or her, that is going to die, but thank God we survived. Being the last child, premature, almost died during childbirth u will understand how my parents raise me up. It’s like the Malay proverb ‘bagai menatang  minyak yang penuh’  and thats what my dad always said. Both my sibling are grown up already so much of the attention is towards me. If u guys think I’m spoilt, up to you guys to judge me but i don’t act like one do I?
    As I grew up, i don’t socialize much with kids my age. I don’t know why. Maybe because my parents are a bit strict with who I mixed with. They never said it, but i know. I just know from the face of my parents that they don’t allow it. Still my parents do gave me the freedom of making decision, it’s just I don’t want to do so.Thus most of the time I spent at home, watching telly  ( hahaha very British ‘telly’). I found a new love..Books. I don’t have much books at home, a set of encyclopedia (made in the 60’s) that i enjoyed very much, my brother’s science book maybe some cookbook i guess. Of course the encyclopedia is in English and I don’t understand much that time. There are pictures u know so I knew that rotating magnet can create electricity. Slowly but surely I learn English from my dad. He’s not highly educated, just a soldier. Why if he have the chance he won’t joined the Air Force in the first place! We still speak a bit of English at home, especially when I wanted something that requires his permission. When I went to people’s home I looked at their books, sitting next to their book rack. Mum said one of the ways to make me shut up is to give me a book. I’m quite talkative as child, usually telling people bout the things i read from those books. I did that till this day didn’t I?
    During my early teenage years, I probably grew a bit of anti-social personality. It’s not that I hate people, it’s just I don’t know whats the word for it but I’m not used to it, OK? I don’t greet people that I do not know even if they are friends of my friends, and don’t expect me to make the first move either. People may think I’m ’sombong’ for doing so. Whatever..I just don’t feel comfortable. I prefer the word ’shy’ to describe it..hehe.
    So until this day, I only have a few collection of friends and I never go to their houses, except for one or two. Most of them do invite. But it’s just that I felt awkward. My behavior, some inappropriate ones, maybe attributed to way I grew up. I’m not used mixing with people so maybe I don’t know how to carry myself in public.
    Looking at the pros of it, I must say that it help me to concentrate on my education. At home, without friends what else you going to do right? I don’t read comic’s like most kids do when they grew up and internet is not like nowadays. I don’t smoke, I don’t do drugs, I don’t go out at late at night n ‘rempit’, I don’t sit around at shopping mall doing nothing. I guess it’s because theres no influence of it back then when the time where most people enjoyed themselves with their friends.
    It’s kinda sad really that I don’t actually enjoyed my childhood the way other people do and get to know people. But looking at the pros of it in this age where we see bad things around us, I’m thankful for it and it makes me they way I am now. Now I do have the freedom to hangout with everybody else, maybe I’m just too used to be alone that I feel comfortable this way.
    Thats all I can tell you about they way I grew up…

    I was watching this movie called The Beast,
i forgot is it in HBO or Cinemax, but its in Astro. Its an American made film concerning
the Soviet-Afghan War (1979-1989) and was made during the 80’s. I’m not here to
tell much bout the history of the Afghan War just about the propaganda (called
it whatever u want) value.
    If you notice American film during the 80’s (back in the Cold War
days), like Rambo III, James Bond film The Living Daylights, u’ll see
that the West portrayed the Afghan resistance or The Mujahideen as an honorable
fighter who defended their homeland from communist invasion. Of course being
commies they are bad in the eyes of the West.
    Some of you who have more knowledge about Islamic history, go to
mosque and listen to ‘ceramah’ there more than me must ave heard about the
stories of these Mujahideen. Stories such as flock of birds blocking the Soviet
fighters on their bombing runs, or storm that stopped the Soviet tanks in their
tracks. Its not to say that I don’t believe in such things but we need to
remember that America also involve in the War in supplying the Mujahideen with
the much needed Stinger missile, to fend of the Soviet ‘Hind’ (helicopters).
    Oh yes, thats what they tell back in the 80’s when the Mujahideen
is their friend against the Soviet. I saw in this documentary Zbigniew
Brzezinski (pronounce Zeb-brig-ni-ev Brez-zin-ski) said to the horde of Afghans
"This land belongs to you and you will get it back". Makes me laugh
thinking of what the American did in Afghanistan nowadays. Total hypocrisy! Those same Mujahideen that fought off
the Soviet in the 80’s are know called insurgent and terrorist. That happened
because this fella named Osama and the 9/11, or so according to accepted
convention.

    Don’t you think that they are doing the same as the Soviet did 20
years ago in the name of War against terror?

    Thus Mujahideen everywhere will always be Mujahideen, fighting in
the name of religion and their homeland. I have respect for them and also for
the soldiers in both sides. Whether its the Soviet or Americans. The deserve
respect because they are locked in a war, in an environment where we peaceful
Malaysian don’t understand. They were sent there by politician not by their own
will. Any brutalities, rape or looting that happened, it is a nature of war
that nor us to judge or can escape if its happened. We know it’s wrong based on
our peacetime perception but in war anything can happened beyond reason. Thats
why it happened in the first place isn’t it?
    Just be thankful and pray that we will never experience it in our
lifetime for it is a grim reality that is hard for us to understand right now,
in this peaceful convenience time.
    Let us have a moment of silence for those who died in the Afghan
war, whether it is the Mujahideen or the Red
Army…………………………………………….Amen

This past one week
of holiday, I’ve been sitting in front of the TV watching my favourite
programmes. My parents didn’t seem to complain my couch potato lifestyle.
Hopefully with the lack of workout, abundance of sleep and snacks, I’ll gain
some weight

I’ve been watching
this program called Strangest UFO Stories
(I guess) on Discovery. Apparently this Swiss hotel manager, Erich Von Daniken
wrote a book claiming that extra-terrestrial interaction with early human culture!

It’s like those
monuments like The Pyramids of Giza and The Stonehenge are built by aliens
using high tech technology and early humans can’t possibly do the same. Heard
this somewhere? Sounds like a plot in Stargate SG-1 isn’t it? The Gods that early
human worshiped might be aliens (That’s why it is weird looking, have big
heads, multiple arms or something like that). It is analogous to some native
tribe worshipping aeroplane and white people when they first met them (You guys
that have watched Gods Must be Crazy will
understand)

Anyway, I’m a
sceptic. For those believers out there; come on! Humans can build great
monument without sophisticated technology. Humans are unique! Humans possess
intelligent and most importantly will power to achieve the impossible. Why
alien technology of anti-gravity is much more logical than a group of men
pulling stones on a sled? Sure wheels are not invented yet and we not sure on
the construction technique (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Egyptian_pyramid_construction_techniques)
but elbow grease and sweat of thousands of men are enough to move mountain. Why
we need aliens to come to our planet and construct something for us?

There are several
findings in archaeology that’s perplexing like the Dendera Lights (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dendera_light).Von Daniken claims that the Egyptian has mastered the use of electricity and use
the light bulb brought by the aliens. There could be possibility of this but
the problem is there’s no evidence! There are easier way to explain it like a
part of Egyptian mythology of a lotus spawning a snake.

Some of you out
there may argue that they found a source for electricity in the antiquity for
example the so called ‘Baghdad Battery’ (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baghdad_Battery).
Sure it can produce a little amount of electricity, but if the ancients are
more advance than today, surely the have another alternative of producing
electricity rather than a crude piece of vinegar filled jars with copper/iron
electrodes. OK..we may not find it yet but if the battery to produce electricity
for a sustainable use, its going to take a lot and lots of it which is not
economically viable.

The mystery of the
past still haunts us in many unexplainable phenomenons. Conspiracy theories are
fun to ponder at but please stick to reasonable explanation by scientists and
archaeologists. Not to say we must reject these pseudoscientific theories, it
opens our mind for a more creative thinking. But ET building the pyramids is
way too much and can be considered an insult to human ingenuity.